My New Class Awaken Your Creative Soul is at Yoga For Life in Temecula

My new class “Awaken Your Creative Soul” is now being offered at Yoga For Life in Temecula on the 1st and 3rd Friday of every month at the New and Full Moon so come on down and get inspired!
Creative Soul Class Flyer 2014 BEST copy

Coming Soon!

Bi-monthly classes starting Dec 21, 2014 at Inspire San Diego Studio
inspire San Diego art classes by Kathy Crabbe

Coming in February 2015 ~ 4 week class plus intro at Mount San Jacinto College (Menifee Campus) – dates tba …More info here.

Kathy Crabbe author boxABOUT KATHY

Kathy Crabbe is a Creative Soul Guide, artist, author and educator. Originally from Canada, Kathy currently lives and works in the wine country of Temecula. Kathy created the Awaken Your Creative Soul class after spending 7 years drawing a Creative Soul Deck using her non dominant left hand. This awakened Kathy’s intuitive, creative soul in new ways and inspired her to help others follow their dreams. Since then Kathy has given over 1000 intuitive readings using her Creative Soul ‘lefty’ deck as well as teaching at the Wise Woman University. Her art has appeared in galleries, museums, magazines and on HGTV. Kathy formed a writer’s group in Temecula to share her ‘lefty’ art and poetry which she also published in a zine featuring local writers. Kathy and a life sized Lefty were invited to speak at an International Women’s Day event in Los Angeles that the LA Times dubbed “self esteem boosting” which was almost as dreamy as hearing her favorite song performed by Michelle Shocked in the background as she spoke.

My Lefty Drawing is Published in the NZ Creative Cronies 2015 Moon Calendar!

Kardin by Kathy CrabbeMy ‘lefty’ drawing titled Kardin has just been published in the 2015 Moon Calendar Astrological Diary put out by the New Zealand Creative Cronies, a group of three astrologers: Minerva, Robyn and Arafelle who live on co-operatively owned land in the Far North of New Zealand.

I find that this Calendar is similar to my other favorite moon calendar, the We’Moon Datebook but with a Southern Hemisphere emphasis such as the times listed in NZ clock time. I also love how each New Moon in the book has a full page with a ‘New Moon Map’ which is a graphic image of planetary positions relative to Aotearoa (New Zealand) and the Southern Hemisphere, at the exact moment of the Moon/Sun conjunction. I also like how each day is accompanied by a phrase, affirmation, or bit of wisdom. Plus I LOVE the artwork which is so interesting; they feature abstract work, figurative fairytale illustrations by Aralyn Doiron plus several nature paintings – so refreshing and innovative rather than simply more super realistic and highly detailed Goddess Art. I also LOVE that they pay their artists as well as sending us a copy of the Diary!

I must say that I am quite partial to anything Kiwi because my brother, Gary Crabbe lives on the South Island of New Zealand where he is a viticulturist growing grapes and making world class Pinot Noir wine with the help of his wife Lynn at Coal Pit Vineyard.

You can order a Moon Calendar & Astrological Diary here: http://www.mooncalendar.co.nz

Prints/cards of Kardin are available in my shop.

2015 Moon Calendar by Creative Cronies

My drawing of “Kardin” as it appears in the Calendar

2015 Moon Calendar by Creative Cronies

Kathy Crabbe author box
ABOUT KATHY

Kathy Crabbe is a Creative Soul Guide, artist, author and educator. Originally from Canada, Kathy currently lives and works in the wine country of Temecula. Kathy created the Awaken Your Creative Soul class after spending 7 years drawing a Creative Soul Deck using her non dominant left hand. This awakened Kathy’s intuitive, creative soul in new ways and inspired her to help others follow their dreams. Since then Kathy has given over 1000 intuitive readings using her Creative Soul ‘lefty’ deck as well as teaching at the Wise Woman University. Her art has appeared in galleries, museums, magazines and on HGTV. Kathy formed a writer’s group in Temecula to share her ‘lefty’ art and poetry which she also published in a zine featuring local writers. Kathy and a life sized Lefty were invited to speak at an International Women’s Day event in Los Angeles that the LA Times dubbed “self esteem boosting” which was almost as dreamy as hearing her favorite song performed by Michelle Shocked in the background as she spoke.

Blessed Mama Earth Balls ~ Happy Full Moon in Taurus

Dear Creative Soul,

It’s the Full Moon in Taurus; an earthy, lusty, fixed sign that just loves life’s luxuries.  This Full Moon I am feeling guided to share something personal since Taurus does so love to get down and dirty; hands in the muck so to speak, and I do hope you join me!

To start things off I pull a card from my Creative Soul Deck (aka my ‘lefty’ deck) for guidance.

Ali by Kathy Crabbe (Creative Soul Card)Creative Soul Guidance: Ali

Affirmation: I believe in me

Ali, with the world on her head is a seeker and a finder of ways to help and serve human-kind; a heavy weight indeed, but loaded with joy and blessings as well.

Where are you guided to serve? And do you serve already, or if not do you have any wishes and dreams for serving/helping others?

As for me I’ve been a spiritual and intuitive artist for many years and I just love to share that with others through my writing, my art, my blog, my creative soul readings, my classes etc.

Creative Soul Challenge

In what ways could you better serve others and yourself in the process? How will you begin to serve or continue with what you’re already doing?

I do pretty well in this regard, but I am also interested in public art projects which beautify sad and neglected places and help heal broken hearts and souls in the process. I am looking into a public art commission in Riverside County as well as reading an inspirational book by Lily Yeh called “Awakening Creativity: Dandelion School Blossoms”.

emeraldEmerald’s Healing Song

O Brave Soul
you have traveled far
to the Moon, to La Lune, to the Moon
Oh Brave Soul
who has known pain
sadness and gloom
Lift up your arms
and shout, “I am here
and I rise and I fall with Your tides
and I
am
beautiful
as are You.”
Blessed be.

Taurus Full Moon Circle Suggestions from my Goddess Zodiac Playbook

  • Gemstones: emerald, chrysocolla, moss agate
  • Plant/Tree: apple, daisy, poppy, rose
  • Herb/Spice: clove, sage, spearmint
  • Food: apple, bean, cereal, pear
  • Animal Spirit: beaver, cattle
  • Tarot Card: hierophant
  • Goddess: Demeter, Flora, Gaia, Hathor, Hera, Nokomis, Olwen, Rhea

NEWS

Art Opening: Inspire San Diego’s Studio, Saturday, Nov. 8, 6-9 pm ~ 7332 University Ave., La Mesa, CA ***Some of my lefty art along with my original mermaid silk painting titled The Chase will be for sale.

Creative Soul Readings are back! After taking a short break from giving intuitive readings I am now back and offering my readings online as well as astrology reports.

Creative Soul Classes New! more info here

Where’s the Moon? Full Moon in Taurus: Nov. 6 at 2:23 pm PST

Creative Soul Circle
This is a public group on Facebook for creative souls seeking a spiritual and intuitive community of like-minds. Click here to join and yes, it’s free of charge. Btw, if you like the title of this blog post it comes from the Creative Soul Expressive Body Movement Challenge I channeled for this Full Moon and which I will be sharing in the Circle.

Find Kathy’s Art at These Shops & Galleries
Chakra Shack * Laguna Beach
Karma Boutique * San Diego
Girl in the Curl * San Clemente
Mermaids * Carlsbad
The Cat House * Calgary

  • Purchase my Goddess Zodiac ebook here.
  • Purchase Creative Soul Cards and Prints here.Kathy Crabbe author box

ABOUT KATHY

Kathy Crabbe is a Creative Soul Guide, artist, author and educator. Originally from Canada, Kathy currently lives and works in the wine country of Temecula. Kathy created the Awaken Your Creative Soul class after spending 7 years drawing a Creative Soul Deck using her non dominant left hand. This awakened Kathy’s intuitive, creative soul in new ways and inspired her to help others follow their dreams. Since then Kathy has given over 1000 intuitive readings using her Creative Soul ‘lefty’ deck as well as teaching at the Wise Woman University. Her art has appeared in galleries, museums, magazines and on HGTV. Kathy formed a writer’s group in Temecula to share her ‘lefty’ art and poetry which she also published in a zine featuring local writers.  Kathy and a life sized Lefty were invited to speak at an International Women’s Day event in Los Angeles that the LA Times dubbed “self esteem boosting” which was almost as dreamy as hearing her favorite song performed by Michelle Shocked in the background as she spoke.

 

 

The Journey Within ~ New Moon in Scorpio

Dear Creative Souls,

It’s the New Moon in Scorpio PLUS a solar eclipse this Thursday, October 23rd and time again for a Creative Soul Challenge and Creative Soul Card from my very own deck. It’s also time to set your intentions for the month ahead. I will also be sharing a Creative Soul Body Challenge in my Facebook group, the Creative Soul Circle where membership is free.

If you like what you see in this article then you will love my Creative Soul Class which will be starting in Nov/Dec, 2014 in Riverside County, California in several locations to be announced soon and also online at the Wise Woman University in 2015.

Ande was ready for any adventure by Kathy Crabbe

Ande was ready for any adventure by Kathy Crabbe

Creative Soul Card: Ande was ready for any adventure

Affirmation: I adventure within on a journey of soul.

We are going deep within for healing at this new moon to visit the small, scared child within as we go back to a time when tears were held in or released.

We journey.

And we journey.

Until our small, naked self appears and we cry out our own name. We reach for our child self and we hug her or him close allowing the warmth of our touch and our hearts to melt…to melt…to melt our fears and to release their grip on us, washing everything clean.

We allow our child self to reside in us where she/he will be safe and protected forever.

Creative Soul Challenge

Who did this to you? Who caused you grief and trauma and hurt as a child? And can you go back in history to see this pattern repeating itself through the generations?

malachite sphereMalachite’s Healing Song

Bless me Mother

Bless me Father

For I am whole and holy

and perfect just as I am.

My healing comes in leaps and bounds

and I am open yet vulnerable

to life’s travails.

So I ask for Your protection

and Guidance on this long road

called Life.

And I ask for Your Blessings

as I sing Your song:

I am but a bee

in the flower

in your garden,

where bliss

resides in me

around me

around us all.

Blessed Be

Creative Soul Suggestions from my Goddess Zodiac Playbook

  • Color: blood red, maroon
  • Gemstone: malachite, opal, topaz
  • Plant/Tree: blackthorn, geranium, honeysuckle, thistle
  • Herb/Spice: catmint, witch hazel, wormwood
  • Food: onion, strong tasting foods
  • Animal Spirit: beetles, eagle, insects, phoenix, scorpion, snake
  • Tarot Card: death
  • Goddesses: Brigid, Hecate, Morgan, Selkhet

Where’s that Moon?

New Moon in Scorpio: Oct. 23 at 2:57 pm PDT

Partial Solar Eclipse: Oct. 23 at 2:46 pm PDT (eclipse visible from the North Pacific and North America)

If you like what you see here please consider taking my upcoming Creative Soul Class which will meet online and in-person at the New and Full Moon.

Purchase my Goddess Zodiac ebook here.

Purchase Creative Soul Cards and Prints here.

author boxABOUT KATHY
I am a Canadian born, self taught intuitive artist, writer, teacher and creative soul guide currently living and working in a desert valley of Southern California surrounded by ancient oaks and an elfin forest. We live on 5 acres in a home created by my husband that we share with our dog and cat muses, Abby and Spartacus. I’ve been drawing since age two and offering creative soul guidance since 2008. I teach a class called Awaken Your Creative Soul which is accompanied by my Creative Soul Deck.

Artists Around the World Blog-Hop

I am honoured to participate in this blog hop featuring artists around the world. I was invited by talented artist and intuitive reader Adrienne Vita along with the illustrator Marta Berk to participate.

Why do I create what I do?

I never know exactly what it is I’m about to create next actually. I let spirit guide me and am often surprised by what comes out, but this is all part of the creative process, non? I do know that whatever I create is exactly what i need at that moment to grow my creative soul.

kathy crabbe creative soul reading

Creative Soul Readings by Kathy Crabbe

How does my creative process work?

My creative work anchors me to the Divine and is often exactly what i need to help guide me along my path emotionally and intuitively.

How does my work differ from others of its genre?

Which work? I have so many different styles: cartooney…abstract…detailed realism…whimsical children’s book illustration style…etc.

LuLu in Laguna art prints by Kathy Crabbe

LuLu in Laguna art prints by Kathy Crabbe

Trois Soeurs by Kathy Crabbe

Trois Soeurs (watercolor & gouache) by Kathy Crabbe

bring you back (FARMGIRL) by Kathy Crabbe

bring you back (FARMGIRL) by Kathy Crabbe (Alien Series)

For Per by Kathy Crabbe (48x48 inches)

For Per by Kathy Crabbe (48×48 inches) ~ (Divine Feminine Series)

What am I presently working on?

Currently I’m developing a new class called “Awaken Your Creative Soul”; a creative, spiritual class where students create affirmation cards using their non dominant hand along with moon collages! I find that developing a class and teaching is an incredibly rich and satisfying experience creatively. I also continue to create more ‘lefty’ drawings combined with collaged words/phrases that may end up being published in upcoming Creative Soul decks that I hope to put out every year. I also channel healing songs, affirmations and Creative Soul Challenges and Body Movement exercises every New and Full Moon to accompany a Creative Soul Card chosen specifically for that Moon and shared with my class.

Inspiration counts by Kathy Crabbe

Inspiration counts by Kathy Crabbe (from the Creative Soul deck)

Who inspires me to create?

The Divine spark within.

Two blogs or artists that inspire me:

Francesco Clemente: Inspired by India ~ his latest exhibit at the Rubin Museum.

francesco clemente

A view of the Clemente installation with Clemente’s “Hunger” (1990) on the right, 93 1/2 x 96 1/2 in., Philadelphia Museum of Art: Partial and promised gift of Marion Boulton Stroud, 1991(click to enlarge)

An inspiring quote:

When in doubt, twirl!” (by modern dance pioneer Ted Shawn).

Up next

I recently discovered the beautiful green goddess inspired photography and jewelry of Astara Lak’ech and would like to invite everyone to hop on over to Astara’s Sacred Spirit of Gaia blog as we continue on with the worldwide artist blog-hop ~ enjoy and please support artists everywhere!

Finding the Power Within ~ Aries Super Full Moon

It’s the Aries Full Moon on Oct. 8th and it’s gonna be intense so, as usual I’ve channeled a Creative Soul Challenge based upon a card chosen from my Creative Soul Deck along with a Gemstone Healing Song to be sung by the light of the full moon. I’ve also channeled a Creative Soul Body Challenge which I’ll be sharing with my Creative Soul Circle; my Facebook group that you are welcome to join.

Full Moon in Aries ~ October 8, 2014 ~ 3:50 am Pacific time

Creative Soul Challenge ~ How to find the power within

Whether we have power, are seeking power or are power-less; we all have the power of choice. Will we choose life or death? And if death chooses us, do we choose to die gracefully or kicking and screaming; resisting every step of the way?

No path or choice is inherently right or wrong; it’s your choice. So how can you be of service to others who are making hard choices?

This Aries Full Moon we are being challenged to examine one hard choice we’ve had to make that felt out of our control and to ask ourselves: “Why did it feel that way?”

Let yourself meditate upon this choice for a while before responding. Then write out a strong affirmative statement proclaiming all you’ve learned and been blessed with due to making this hard choice.

Full Moon in Aries Healing Gemstone: Fire Opal

fire opal

fire opal

Song of the Fire Opal

My love is in bloom

for You for You

I pray to La Lune

for You for You

I sing this tune

for You for You

My breath, my heart, my soul, my gifts

for You for You

I am transfixed

for You for You

transformed

for You for You

Blessed to Be

for You for You

just me

more me

me me meeeeeeeeee…

Take a look now at the intentions you set at the New Moon (Sept. 23). How have they blossomed? If you didn’t set intentions, what is coming to fruition for you right now?

With this Full Moon occulting (very very close to) Uranus and trining Uranus, Mars and Jupiter along with a Lunar Eclipse and Mercury Retrograde, we are stripping away facades, going deep within and seeking inner truths about ourselves and our creative fire.

How can “Fin”, this month’s Full Moon card assist you with that? Ask Fin right now.

Fin by Kathy Crabbe (Creative Soul Card)

Fin by Kathy Crabbe (Creative Soul Card)

Creative Soul Card: Fin

Fin’s Song

This is the end, my friend

This Tall Tale ends here

with you

You, who are brave and true

You

who stand tall and true

You

who chooses to be true

to you, you, you.

Creative Soul Suggestions for your Circle from my Goddess Zodiac Book

  • Element: fire
  • Color: red
  • Gemstone: amethyst, diamond, fire opal, garnet
  • Plant/Tree: aloe, dandelion, holly, mustard, thistle
  • Herb/Spice: broom, cayenne pepper, garlic
  • Food: onion, pepper, radish, rhubarb
  • Animal Spirit: ram, red hawk
  • Tarot Card: Empress, Emperor
  • Goddess: Amazon, Fuji, Kali, Sekhmet, Valkyries

If you like what you see here please consider taking my upcoming Creative Soul Class which will meet online and in-person at the New and Full Moon.

Purchase my Goddess Zodiac ebook here.

Purchase Creative Soul Cards and Prints here.

author boxAbout Kathy Crabbe

I am a Canadian born, self taught intuitive artist and creative soul guide currently living in a desert valley of Southern California surrounded by ancient oaks and an elfin forest. I live in a home created by my husband that we share with our cat and dog muses, Spartacus and Abby. I’ve been drawing since age two and offering creative soul guidance since 2008.

My Sacred Journey: a Slide Show

I made this slide show with the help of a friend some time ago (when I had red hair), but it’s worth showing again. It was filmed in an inland Valley of Southern California near Sage. You can also spot my Creative Soul Deck in action ~ Enjoy!

ABOUT KATHY CRABBE
I am a Canadian born, self taught intuitive artist and creative soul guide currently living in a desert valley of Southern California surrounded by ancient oaks and an elfin forest. I live in a home created by my husband that we share with our cat and dog muses, Spartacus and Abby. I’ve been drawing since age two and offering creative soul guidance since 2008.

Stand up for YOU and Let Go of Negativity: New Moon in Libra

New Moon Circle in Libra

New Moon Circle in Libra

It’s the New Moon in Libra on September 23 at 11:14 pm Pacific time. Libra is ruled by the planet Venus, the Goddess of Love so it’s time to take a good, hard look at all your relationships, including the one you have with yourself.

As usual, I have pulled a Creative Soul Card from my own handpainted ‘lefty’  deck and written/channeled a New Moon Challenge to go along with it along with a song for Libra’s Healing Gemstone, the Bloodstone. I was also inspired by the beautiful setting (see photo to your left) where I held this New Moon Circle; a place where the Green Goddess is very happy, content and thriving.

If you are inspired by this material then you may be interested in attending my upcoming Creative Soul Classes which will meet online and in-person at the New and Full Moon.

Libra’s Song & Meditation *to be sung outside if possible*

Listen
Listen
Listen
to the wind.
Become the wind.
You ARE the wind.

Does it chill you? Warm you? Relax you? Frighten you? Take note.
Relax your bones, letting the wind carry you until you are everywhere all at once – at one with the wind.

Breathe in
Breathe out
Breathe in
Breathe out

This is the energy of the Libra New Moon.

Balanced.
Beautiful.
Becalmed

bloodstoneSong of the Bloodstone ~ a Libra Healing Stone

I am first
I am glorious
I am healed
I am Bloodstone
flowing
and in tune with Mama Moon.

I cherish
I hold
I love
fierce and true and proud.

O New Moon, take me
break me
make me whole
as I sing your song
and I bloom
I bloom
I bloom.

O Bloodroot, take me down
to the depths where each seed
I plant is true.

Blessed Be.

Creative Soul Card & Challenge for the New Moon in Libra

Libra New Moon Card: The liar at the crossroads

Affirmation: I stand up for me, not neg-a-tiv-ity.

The Liar at the Crossroads by Kathy Crabbe

The Liar at the Crossroads by Kathy Crabbe

This card challenges you to seek and find where you’re out of balance. To gather with those of like-mind and to let go of negative energy and negative people who feed on your energy and who bring you down. Help them, yes, but don’t let them feed on you energetically. Take notice of how you feel after being with them and distance yourself when necessary.

This card accepts and takes from you all that negativity, so let it roll right out of you and into that black ball within the “Liar at the Crossroads”. Your choice.

At this New Moon, along with setting your intentions for the moonth ahead, I challenge you to let go of one negative person, thing, feeling, energy, vibe – whatever it is. Make sure to get some support along the way, either from your Moon Group, in the Creative Soul Circle (my free Facebook Group) or from close friends or a counselor.

Libra Altar Suggestions from my Goddess Zodiac Playbook

  • Quality – Cardinal
  • Element – Air
  • Ruler – Venus
  • Anatomy – Kidneys
  • Natural sign of – 7th house
  • Opposite sign – Aries
  • Color – Shades of blue, pale green, pink
  • Gemstone – Bloodstone, jade, jasper
  • Tarot card – Justice
  • Goddesses – Athene, Benzaitan, Maat, Minerva, Nemesis, Themis

If you like what you see here please consider taking my upcoming Creative Soul Class which will meet online and in-person at the New and Full Moon.

Purchase my Goddess Zodiac ebook here.

Purchase Creative Soul Cards and Prints here.

Kathy Crabbe Guiding Your Creative Soul

ABOUT KATHY CRABBE
I am a Canadian born, self taught intuitive artist and creative soul guide currently living in a desert valley of Southern California surrounded by ancient oaks and an elfin forest. I live in a home created by my husband that we share with our cat and dog muses, Spartacus and Abby. I’ve been drawing since age two and offering creative soul guidance since 2008.

Dream & Dance & Heal: Full Moon in Pisces

It’s almost the Full Moon in that most mystical, magical, and spiritually inclined sign of the zodiac; Pisces so I decided to choose a card from my Creative Soul Deck and to sleep with it under my pillow while requesting Dream Guidance and Insights from Mama Moon & the Divine.

Creative Soul Card for the Full Moon in Pisces

Guess poet by Kathy Crabbe

Guess poet by Kathy Crabbe

Creative Soul Card: Guess -poet-

Affirmation: I dream the Divine in everything.

This is the dream, the dream called life and you are in the middle of it.

As if we know exactly what we’re doing here…well, we don’t, but by tuning into Mama Moon we open our hearts creatively as we spoon feed ourselves the nourishment we crave, oh that we crave so dearly.

moonstone sphereMoonstone Meditation & Song

A Meditation to be sung or said aloud under the light  of the Full Moon *shared with my Creative Soul Circle ~ all are welcome to join this group on Facebook at no cost.

Creative Soul Challenge

I invite you to join my Creative Soul Circle and Sing the Song of the Moonstone together with your fellow Moon Musers as you catch your first glimpse of Mama Moon; full in Pisces on September 8th.

At this time Mama Moon is joined in the sky by Chiron, the planetoid (?) of wounded healers.

Where have you been wounded?

How will you release that wound by the light of the Full Moon?

You know the way. You ARE guided. Allow the mystical glow and guidance of this Full Moon to cleanse you and shower your dreams with new visions and old visions re-visioned anew.

Then dance, dance, dance in your heart for you are free.

And Guess -poet- always encourages poetry so be open to receiving pearls of wisdom in unexpected ways.

For Your Pisces Full Moon Altar

Color: lavender
Gemstone: moonstone
Herb: chicory
Food: cucumber
Animal Spirit: fish
Goddess: Nix

Color: green
Gemstone: sapphire
Herb: valerian
Food: oats
Animal Spirit: cat
Goddess: Changing Woman – See more at: http://www.kathycrabbe.com/#sthash.nmKNfUQc.dpuf

Last but not least, take a look back at the intentions you set at the New Moon on August 25th and ask yourself what’s flowered for you since then.

Blessed Be.

If you like what you see here please consider signing up for my Creative Soul Classes which will meet online and in-person at the New and Full Moon (coming soon).

Altar suggestions are from my Goddess Zodiac ebook.

Purchase Creative Soul Cards and Prints here.

Guess -poet- is available here.

Kathy Crabbe Guiding Your Creative SoulABOUT KATHY CRABBE
I am a Canadian born, self taught intuitive artist and creative soul guide currently living in a desert valley of Southern California surrounded by ancient oaks and an elfin forest. I live in a home created by my husband that we share with our cat and dog muses, Spartacus and Abby. I’ve been drawing since age two and offering creative soul guidance since 2008.

Angel ~ the little calf who lives in my chest

A short while ago I painted a custom Pet Portrait called “Angel” on reclaimed pine board for a client and she has kindly allowed me to share her heartfelt story on my blog.

Angel by Kathy Crabbe

Angel by Kathy Crabbe

Angel

A little calf lives in my chest. Well, actually, the valve of a little calf’s heart lives in my chest. And I thank the precious little calf every day for giving me life after my valve began to fail and the calf’s valve was transplanted into my heart.

A few years ago I learned that I had a heart valve problem called aortic stenosis. It’s when the aortic valve becomes hardened and narrows which makes pumping the blood through increasingly harder. Eventually, the valve must be replaced or it would rupture and likely cause death. As my cardiologist said “it’s not if, it’s when.” As the stenosis progressed it made sense to me to do that. At age 70 and otherwise healthy I figured that was a no brainer.

In talking to my thoracic surgeon I learned that there are three types of valves that are used for this procedure. One is an artificial valve that is inserted vascularly with no open heart surgery required, but this was not indicated in my condition. The other types of valves used are either from a pig (porcine) or a calf (bovine). “Wait,” I said. That means a calf or a pig must be sacrificed for me. I am a strict vegan – have been for about 15 years on top of another 25 years of being vegetarian. In other words, I have not eaten an animal in almost half a century and I wasn’t excited about killing an animal now. This was a horrible dilemma for me.

The surgeon said the bovine valve would be the right choice for the needs of my body. So there I was. How was I to square this with my strongly held personal beliefs of not killing animals? If I did not have the surgery I would likely die within a couple of years. If I did have the surgery, an animal would have to die to save me. Many people would say this was an easy answer – just do it – animals are killed every day for humans’ food and other uses but for me it was not that easy.

I meditated on it, discussed it with several people from my Zen meditation group and other close friends I consider connected to the universe in an intensely spiritual way. One said that this calf would be honored to live within me as a way of thanking me for saving so many other animals over the years and living a lifestyle where I consider the well being of animals every day. Another said that this calf would be honored to come to live on earth in the body of a gentle human and experience a new life in this way.

After much soul-searching, in the end, I concluded that I would agree to the bovine valve and just over a year ago I had the open heart surgery to replace my damaged valve. But I wanted to be sure that I remembered the little calf each day. I named the calf Angel because it is a gender neutral name and I have no idea if my calf was a boy or girl. I just know that it is a very important being to me.

I wanted a tangible way of remembering Angel and had been looking for a card or a small art piece of a beautiful little calf with wings. It had to be just the right representation, but for some months I had no luck in fulfilling my vision. But when I saw talented Kathy Crabbe’s newest art genre of paintings on recycled pine I commissioned her to paint Angel on a 4” by 4” piece and it turned out to be just what I had envisioned. Kathy had me go over dozens of pictures of calves and I picked several that I liked one thing or another about and she came up with what you see here. Angel has a place not only in my chest but also on my sideboard where I see the painting each day and remember that Angel lives in me so I can enjoy a precious longer life.

Kathy, thank you for the beautiful job – you caught my vision and brought Angel to life for me.  ~ Barbara, Orange County, California

Angel (custom pet portrait) by Kathy Crabbe

Angel (a custom pet portrait) by Kathy Crabbe

To order a custom Pet Portrait by Kathy Crabbe please click here.

Kathy Crabbe Guiding Your Creative Soul

About Kathy Crabbe
Kathy Crabbe is a Creative Soul Guide, artist, author and educator who has devoted her life to exploring spirituality and creativity with passion and integrity. Kathy empowers soul-seekers to live the life of their dreams through online resources, inspirational art, eClasses, eBooks, and Creative Soul Sessions infused with a rich background in the arts.