Integrate Your Shadow
This has been the Year of Dreaming for me.
Previously, since around age 13, I kept a dedicated dream journal, recording only a handful of important dreams each year—those that deeply resonated. Since beginning a much more devoted dream practice and recording all my dreams, I have written down 150 dreams since November 16, 2024.
With each dream, I record the feeling associated with it and pull a tarot card from my new Siren Song Mermaid Tarot deck. For especially important dreams, I also note and tally additional details: moon phases and signs, recurring cards, repeated feelings, symbols, and images.
So far, the Balsamic Scorpio Moon has proven to be my most prolific dream time. My husband, Mark, appears as the most recurring symbol. When I was using a traditional tarot deck, the Five of Wands appeared most often; when working with my own Mermaid Tarot (Major Arcana only), the World and Star cards recur again and again.
The World Mermaid by Kathy Crabbe from the Siren Song Mermaid Tarot
Shadow Work
The purpose of this in-depth dreamwork is Shadow Work—understanding and uncovering my shadow, then integrating it so I may become healthier, more whole, and more holy. Once one begins this work, change can happen surprisingly quickly.
I also record synchronicities, as dreamwork naturally leads to greater awareness on many levels.
I began this practice after speaking with—and attending—an experimental Dream Workshop hosted by my good friend, astrologer Chad Woodward.
No Cynics Allowed from Mugwort Zine by Kathy Crabbe
Dream Tips
Always keep a dedicated dream notebook and pen by your bed, ready to record your dreams immediately upon waking.
Write a quick note about how you felt during or after the dream.
Later (or even before sleep), pull a tarot card for your dream.
I personally do this afterward, when I tally dreams alongside moon phases, signs, and recurring themes.
Integrating the Shadow
I have noticed that my shadow dreams and nightmares shift and change as I begin to understand and integrate my shadow. The shadow is the part of us that has been hidden or repressed.
This practice has helped me face my fears and find my truth. I feel more whole and more in tune with the universe.
Maude by Kathy Crabbe, woodblock print.
To Dream or Not to Dream?
If you don’t remember your dreams or don’t write them down, do not fret—this practice is not for everyone.
Dreams were my entry point into psychic work and becoming a psychic medium. They have always guided me; this is my gift.
In offering psychic soul readings, my wish is to help you uncover your gift—for we can all awaken our intuition and become more whole, creative, and aligned.
P.S. If you missed my last handful of newsletters about my early life and meeting my partner, you can find them on my blog here:
End of an Era
Saying goodbye to LuLu in Laguna silk art as I reflect on 30 years of creating, teaching, and living as a full-time artist in Laguna Beach.Who IS LuLu?
LuLu, a cartoon alter ego I created in design school to nurture my inner child, became both my artistic child and a tribute to my grandfather, the cartoonist James Simpkins, guiding me through self-discovery, storytelling, and the full circle of meeting my birth family.Our Favorites
My mom and I look back at our favorite LuLu in Laguna silk art pieces and why we love them.
Sparkly Blessings,
Kathy 'Kat' Crabbe
New Moon in Sagittarius, 5:43 pm PST, Dec. 19, 2025
Winter Solstice, Sun in Capricorn, 7:03 am PST, Dec. 21, 2025
About Kathy Crabbe
“I have been called by Spirit to live a creative life and be of service through my artwork and intuitive guidance.”
I am Kathy Crabbe — a professional psychic medium, past life reader, astrologer, and artist with over thirty years of experience. I offer healing, insight, and spiritual grounding to seekers, dreamers, and mystics ready to dive beneath the surface and reconnect with their soul’s deepest truth. With grace, humor, and a touch of edge, I create safe, sacred spaces where clients feel truly seen and remembered.
At forty, my intuitive gifts blossomed through a five-year journey of painting with my non-dominant left hand. This deep subconscious practice gave birth to my first oracle deck, the Lefty Oracle. Since then, I’ve channeled and self-published six hand-painted decks — portals inviting intuitive connection and spiritual exploration.