"I guess I don't care..." from 'Like You' by Kristin Hersh - Strange Angels.
Aching for you? I'm not breaking any rules. I'm not feeling cohesive anymore.
The Ancestors speak:
Turn misery into gold,
tears catch flight,
turn into butterflies,
pain becomes water,
washing me clean,
I'm gonna erase your softness, turn you invisible.
"When are you thinking of disappearing?" From "Nothing but Heartache in Your Social Life" by Gordon Downie - Coke Machine Glow.
If you were here, I'd sit you at the base of my painting and drip Iridescent Stainless Steel (Coarse) paint over you. Invisible at night, with a dash of brown ink spatters until you and the paint-ing speak as one: "Make me whole" - untouchable, perfect, forever, until tonight.
It feels like a pupae or some kind of deep sea creature, pregnant, ready to burst, release joy into the world, not hurt. I will leave it for now, start fresh. The journey continues...
Musical Inspiration: Kristin Hersh - "Strange Angels", Gordon Downie - "Coke Machine Glow".