Pleasure

In process (acrylic & pastel on silk)

100 Words

Awakened from the womb, one's bed...taking a few moments to warm up with the sun's help. The only sounds: a distant plane, birds, dry leaves rattling, a fly, Abby's paws on dirt.

In my dream Kara pleasuring herself freely, I was impressed. "How does this change things?" I asked and realized that women's sexuality is humanized by talking about it openly.

Instead of projecting our darkness, our fears on others to act out for us, we must accept them as us. By giving of ourselves freely we replenish all that we have lost.

But will 100 words be enough?

100 Words

In Process 

I discovered a very cool website called 100 Words through a friend and it got me writing every day, but in 100 word blocks. I found that my writing became much more focused, poetic and succinct so I've starting it up again, but this time on my blog in conjunction with works of art in progress. Enjoy!

100 Words

Silence, for meditation, sleeping, deep thinking...had to remove the clock. Sit cross-legged, motionless, the pen clutched in my hand, feeling you inside me.

My heart radiates joy and my mind is still.

Images of Madonna and Maya Deren - Goddesses; Venuses - out of the sea, worshiping Love and Sex and young boys - crawling cat-like onto a board-room table - proud and strong and sexual, predatory.

From God to sex to Love - not a far leap.

Sometimes watching strong men makes me feel like anything is possible - rippling muscles, dark eyes, bare chests, guns. Powerful emotions caught up inside.

Literary Ambience: Diaries of Anais Nin

Moon Talon

When painting to music every song is like entering a different world. When creating from pain - paint is the antidote.

Paintings to capture what was...paintings to remember you...paintings to forget the past.

But what about the future? That, I can't imagine. What I can do is capture you on canvas...forever.

That imperfect moment made perfect...my creation. Making order out of chaos. The abstract and analytical mind can rest here, in being-ness.

Question: Without the pain can I paint? Painting relieves the pain, but with no dark emotion that needs release, how to paint?

Darkness I Seek.

To balance the light, the endless light of desert sun. Blood, sweat and tears.

Passivity does not engender paint. Anger, fight, passion, intensity, blood... does.

"Tell me that its nobodies fault but my own" from the album "Mutations" by Beck.

Moon Talon - acrylic and pastel on silk - 3.5' x 3.5'

Musical Ambience: Bjork - "Telegram", Rose Chronicles - "Gone to Heaven", Vetch - "Life's Not That Hard".

Home

I started this painting on Friday the 13th.

Time to move on.

Leave this country, this home, this town, this space, this emotion.

I just want to go home. Is that why I do what I do? Painting, soul reading? To find home, to make home?

The only true home I have is within myself and my connection with the Divine.

We find our way by being the way.

I came back to this painting on Nov. 16 - not finished yet.

One last kiss before the void.

Self. Contained.

There is so much more.

Home - acrylic & pastel on silk - 3.5' x 3.5'

"We'll keep on whispering our mantras" (from the song "Slow Moves" by Jose Gonzalez).

Musical Inspiration: Putamayo presents "Women of the World Celtic I & II". Booth - "Carbon" and Jose Gonzalez - "Veneer".

Waiting

Waiting, endless waiting. Waiting for something to happen. Making it happen.

Serving self. Serving others.

Feeling the balance. Staying centered.

With energy to burn.

Each canvas a birth, a rebirth, struggling to assert itself. To live. To be human.

How to transcend self and self serving? Through painting and service to others. By putting emotion on paper. By transforming pain into purpose - a reason to live.

Waiting - acrylic & pastel on silk - 3.5' x 3.5' 

I'm not feeling beautiful. I'm just me - trying to survive, feeling the animal in you.

Pain borders on ecstasy, or have you been sleeping?

Musical Inspiration: Booth - "Carbon", Jose Gonzalez - "Veneer".